Hi all,

I am here to clarify few things about my husband. To start with, me and my bf had fallen in love since 2009 and we have been married since 2 years. I am carrying now. Recently I have come to know that he kind of had wild thoughts about his coworker. I discovered it with his online activities. When I enquired initially, he dint agree. After I told him I can prove it, he opened it up. He had dropped her at home few times after work. One day when he was taking her to office, he got tempted by few physical contacts( she was a pillion in his bike). He tried to touch her and she dint resist. The whole day he was fantacizing about her and the next day he approached her and said he ll drop her at home after work. She said ok but left home before he could call her in the evening.

He somehow realized it was bad thing and started looking online forums to stop fantacizing. I am just wondering why did he do this to me. We both lead a quite contented financial life. Sex life is also going fine. But this guy had been addicted to porn which I think is the main reason behind this incident. After we had a conversation about this, he assured me he will be honest to me and he would not watch porn anymore. He quit drinking and smoking as well. Its been a month now.

But yesterday, he was working from home and I left to work. I was bit hesitant to leave him alone at home thinking it might trigger him to watch porn/ drink.(He used to do it whenever he is left alone). But he did not do it yesterday. Instead from the recent files folder, I found he had watched movies like "Unfaithful", "Donjon","the Dirty Shame" etc., When I enquired him, he told me he watched them to learn not to do cheat. I dont know whether I should trust him again. I feel he needs the thrill which he said is no more after getting married.. I really need help from you guys. I respect our relationship and want to survive this. But I need to know whether its worth taking all the pain JUst dont know how to get over this..