((((((((((((((Monty))))))))))
How hard that must be to not have access to T for so long. I struggle so much with finding people safe and it would be so hard for my brain to keep a connection to the knowledge that T was a safe person without that contact.

Is there any way you can call him and have a conversation briefly before your next session? I'm so sorry you feel abandoned. I hope with your next visit, everything will be straightened out and you can feel safe again.