I think my mental heath is getting worse as I get older. I used to paint rooms in my house fun color and had lots of funky colorful artwork. I used to paint colorful art pieces. I am re-doing my kitchen and dining room (due to knocking out walls in a hypo state) and I am picking calm colors and want bare walls. I feel like my brain is often so hectic that I want my surroundings to be quiet and uncluttered.

Same with my clothing. I just bought a bunch of new stuff and it is all black or gray. I have been so unstable for months and the world around me has become overstimulating- I never noticed any of these things in the past. Maybe these are coping skills I didn't have before?