hi Canossa
this sounds more like a self esteem issue than an issue of height. from the sounds ofyour post, it is obvious that your meds are not effective and you should try something different. it takes a lot of patience to find the right med. i changed meds every two months until we got it right. there are so many out there, i refused to stay on one that wasn't working, my doc wasn't thrilled but i wasn't going to waste my time waiting around when it obviously wasn't doing anything for me, the med that worked, worked within a couple weeks. and it turned my life around. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome