Hi Forever Alone. I feel so much for you because what you describe is the same thing I went through when I was 19, until about 23. The only difference is I am a guy, and also I have a different problem where I am a very sexual person and need sex quite a bit, not that I ever got it though. I would almost say that I wish I had your view on sex, it would be very useful for me actually. There is nothing more frustrating than being highly sexually driven and then not having that fulfilled. I cracked at 23 and went to some drastic lengths to break my virginity, something I regret very much now, also because it showed me an easy way to get sex and I became a sex addict. It is also actually quite boring and does not live up to all the hype people give it at all. I would actually prefer to live without sex at all, but seeing as it's an addiction, it is quite hard for me now. But, essentially I am almost exactly the same as you, no girls look at me or are interested in me. If it were not for someone I met who liked me for being me, I would probably never even have known what it was like to be loved. I was also pretty much convinced that I was going to be alone forever. It's only after opening up to people about my problems that things changed. Eventually two damaged people will come together somewhere and they'll fit just right. It just takes a long time, and the important thing is not to do absolutely nothing, but on your own time open yourself up.