thanks guys. your replies mean a lot to me
i just feel like i'm doomed to be alone forever
and i feel like every time i find the light, someone turns out the lights and laughs at me because i seriously thought i could get out
and there's about 20 of us in our group, at weekends there can be up to 40 (usually only in the summer though) and there's new people joining all the time. how can NONE of them click for me?
i just feel so...argh!