I was feeling very vulnerable a little while ago, and anxious about family possibly driving to visit over the holiday. I also was worried about T, as she could be going alone to visit her family. Just a guess. In addition, I've been feeling shaky, which is probably a blood sugar issue. Plus my H and his illness. The only thing I feel good about is my therapy and relationship with my T.

So, I wrote all the above, but much more, and then added how good I feel about her and therapy. I said it feels like love, not romantic love, but pure love. I wrote that it transcends thoughts about the money and being her job. I posted part of that in monalisa's thread. I said it made me teary-eyed. Then I wrote those words: I love you. I've signed a few emails "Love", and hinted at loving her, in my sessions, but never directly said or wrote "I love you." I feel so vulnerable now! I don't expect her to say it back; she won't and that's fine. It's just that I admitted it to her, and it's true. I know it's progress that it doesn't feel like romantic love, but I feel too exposed now. That's what I feel! Exposed!! I meant what I wrote, but it makes me want to cry to have written it. Does this make sense at all?