It's crazy, I read several posts under the depression forum, and I see what people are going through. I can feel for that person, I can say to myself "I really wish that person can get help, nobody deserves that in life" or I hear people say bad things about themselves and I think "No, don't say that about you, I'm sure it's not true."

Me on the other hand, totally different story. I don't feel like I deserve help like they do. I immediately find reasons why I am bad and deserve this pain. I need help, but I tell myself I don't deserve it, because I am X, Y and Z things. The person I am most mean to, neglect the most, and hurt the most in this whole world is myself.