Heh. No kidding, eh? That sound really bugs me, so I stuff the bottles full of cotton balls (not all on top though, 'cause it's a pain digging through(!))

I am…. damn. Feeling pretty freaking down. Trying to do some atypical things as distraction, but brain is stuck on a bad loop. I hate this. As I mentioned in the other thread, I realize (and do truly believe) that I've never done anything to "deserve" the bad things that are happening to me. But it also hit this morning that it still feels like being an innocent person that gets a life sentence. Sorry, that's really depressing, and surely must be worse. It's just that, "But I didn't DO anything!!!" desperate plead that falls on deaf ears and echoes into the void.

Sheesh, ain't I just a barrel of monkeys today….Sorry.