CBT has taught me that we all have choices. We can choose what to do, how to react to a situation, whether to tell someone "no", etc. This is the best thing I learned from CBT. I have been severely depressed and suicidal for over half of my life. I want to die even on my good days and have felt so for many years. I am not made for this earth. I have considered it thoughtfully from many angles for many years. I have been through all know treatments except ECT. Why won't people let me make that choice?