Thanks for everyone's replies.

My T brought up the termination by accident. He asks me every week if I've been working on outside relationships. He asked me a few weeks ago if I'm getting tired of hearing about it. I told him I felt like he was pushing me out. He said not at all, but I need to find support besides him. He said some T's keep people in therapy forever due to the money. He felt that was unethical.

The more I thought about it afterward the more I was getting scared. I am so attached to him I can't imagine life without him. I then asked him if he was going to abandon me. He said no. He was not going anywhere unless he dies. He is not cutting my sessions and for me to ground myself.

Apparently I have an abandonment problem. Not sure yet exactly what happened. I'm trying to remember. I also am concerned I have a sexual abuse issue. I don't remember anything, but there are signs.

When I was married I hated sex. I thought it was gross. At the time I thought it was because I wasn't attached to my husband. He was physically and emotional abusive and a alchoholic. I was forced into sex.

I also don't like baths. I remember my mom hurting me in the tub, but haven't recalled exactly what.

This is all so scary.