I told this girl who I thought was exactly like me and knew that something would happen told her straight of what I know. I wanted to finally be done with it and say it. Be free from this isolation and find closure. For once. I can't say what I feel, is it normal for something possibly once going right are you supposed to feel something or numb like I am in shock in like a good way.

There is a huge chance I am afraid she will desert me, for something stupid, but I am fighting it and doing all my best to be around her and prove I'm being for real. I want her to know and believe from my actions. I'm hear for her, and I will let go everything like I am now if she is here for me. Even if it doesn't work out this is the biggest milestone my life can offer emotionally. I want her to be my for real best friend. I am praying now like crazy. This is like something I don't do, I just want her to be in the know of my intent and feel I am alive doing all I can to be there for her.

Is this what a true friendship is going to start out? I mean I don't know what am I doing wrong or right. I felt she was very intrigued and she blatantly told me how much bs I had on me when I said something. I felt admired she took the time to tell me this. Is this for real? Someone tell me something. I hope I'm not going crazy.