Funny you mention baths, RACEKA. My stepmother and I use to battle over them when I was a teenager (and I mean Battle!) and now you mention it, she was extremely abusive when I was a child a couple of times using the bathtub (and I remember what, exactly) such that my T actually cried out once, "Where'd she learn her mothering skills???!!!" :-) but I've never associated the two together. Are showers all right for you or do you not like that whole area? I shower without a whole lot of trouble.

It is very scary how talking about things can bring up other things we haven't thought about for many years and even old ways of relating. I kind of liked it all after I got use to it because it was the old, "real" Me from back before my stepmother and I kind of bent me out of "true"(to use the technical term my T used once, like a tree gets bent when it's against a heavy wind all the time on a seashore :-) I started recognizing myself and it felt so good and comfortable.