I should be happy in vacation but I'm not. Everyone/thing ticks me off!! I've been sad for two days. I thought it was because of rain yesterday but no. And panic attacks I'm having which haven't had in a long while! It's situational I know! I didn't crash like my dr said I would from mania. I haven't hardly left bedroom in two days. Left only once today for small walk. I've si'd last rep days and I hate that!

I leave Friday am and I just wanna be home alone in my room with my kitty. Lots I just feel so bad :.(

I see pdoc Tuesday and totally don't wanna tell her about this