I am absolutely dreadful at literally everything. I never get better. I can't build any self esteem because I'm too stupid to build myself as a person. I can't setgoals because even if I achieve them by some divine intervention level miracle of the almighty I'm still a failure. Even if I try and try and try all I do is fail and fail and fail. I can train for months at something and stil I suck at it. It's not fair, I was told if I put effort in I'd get rewarded, but I don't. No matter what I do I'm still just as much of stupid incompotent halfwit who falls flat on his face. Even when I put the work in and pour my heart into something its never enough, I'm never enough to achieve anything. How do you just keep trying and making new goals when you just keep failing even when you actually try. It feels like setting any goal, regardless of its minuteness, is like trying to knock the sun out of the sky with rocks, it's a futile effort that ultimately has no pay off.