I don't think I could even commit to that, I even have a hard time keeping up on appointments and other important things, got food stamps cut because I think I forgot to fill out some form to continue them even. I mean I have thought of volunteering but don't even think I could realistically handle that currently...as much as I hate to admit it.

If I did volunteer I'd do so at an animal shelter most likely...As for a job, a record store or head shop would be nice but considering I doubt I could even keep up with a volunteer animal shelter job wouldn't want to get hired somewhere cool like that and make an *** of myself by being totally unreliable due to getting exhausted by stress and other issues but if I was in a place I felt functional enough to find a job and then report to SSI and graudually be cut off or see if I could keep receiving it if making below a certain amount(not quite sure how it works) those are the jobs I'd want most. Just feel so useless, but I gotta try not to get too focused on that...maybe just starting with finding some activities I'd enjoy that might have a positive effect on mental health but don't have any pressure or real obligation involved would be a good idea..instead of getting caught up worrying about what looks to be the bleak future ahead but that is very difficult.