It's such a bugger that we experiences relapses. It's a bit like a pendulum swinging back and forth to and fro in any direction.

And when we start to think we're okay bam out of nowhere an episode can rear its ugly head like a big fat pimple.

None of us want to swing into a downward spiral. In spite of what you feel, continue with the meds. You could get a lot lower if you stop taking them. Don't hit rock bottom where you want to hit the stop button.

Continue to surround yourself with your medical support team. Let them help you, even if you seem to think its not helping right now, you are doing something positive!

About the alcohol. Okay I'll admit from what I've read oh hell yeah it seems like a tempting option right now. But you know the answer. You've subconsciously answered it already.

Try to do ONE thing for yourself each day. Where it's just time for you. You'll get into a rhythm after a while - even if you just don't even feel like starting it to begin with. Think about what activities would you be doing if you weren't crawled up in bed miserable? Watch a film? Use aromatherapy? Light some candles? Have a bubble bath? Read a magazine? Whatever floats your boat.

But the important thing is to remember that you need to take care of yourself right now, both physically and mentally.

Do you journal to get rid of all your thoughts? I've found that helpful before.

Be well.