>The right one will love, accept, and appreciate you for being you!
This new girl is seems like right one.

>Those who walk out of our lives were never meant to be there to begin with.
I don't think that anybody "meant" for anybody. Its just a matter of circumstances. And i hate myself for failing with the new girl.

>I have to ask if you know, what "characteristic flaws" you think you are hiding?
Lack of self-esteem, bitterness, negative thinking, lack of ambitions, lazyness, social anxiety, lack of humor, jealousy and many other things.

>What is it that you hate about yourself. Was this feeling there before you lost your gf and friend?
Yes, but not so strong as now. At some point i admitted this feeling to them and i regret it.

>You have to be open, honest with yourself and others.
As i said, i didn't lie to her about anything.

>You may be rushing into another relationship to get over the hurt of a past one.
Yes, i do. But this girl is really worth it. I am too devastated for my failure to impress her.

>Most people just have a pretty good sense of how they feel after a first date. It isn't all about you and what you think you should have done or not done.
I want to know what she feels. I want to know what my mistake was in particular. I want to know if there any hope. The problem is - i like her very-very much. Not like putting her on pedestal, she has flaws too. But she also has almost everything i like in girls. I dont want to lose her. Its highly unlikely that i ll ever find girl with whom i have so much in common. She didn't respond to my message 3 days already, so i sent another, very short one, trying to not look needy or desperate, just want to get any response from her. I want to get something from her so much. Maybe i should call her number? But most definitely, she just wont pick up the phone and i would feel even worse than now.

>You must learn to love and accept yourself before you can give your love to someone else.
Its impossible at the moment, when all the people, old and new ones, keep abandoning you. The most part that hurt me right now - she does exactly the same thing that my ex did before i got to know whats going on. She didn't respond for my messages more than 2 weeks. I feel like the story is repeating. Why am i doomed to be treated like that? It feels so bad, tears appearing in my eyes again.

>I remember you said you don't have friends. I know it hurts. I was isolated with no friends for years.
Well, i have one friend and two buddies i play games with, but we get to meet very seldom and when we do i can't talk about my problems with them since it would drove them away.

>Do you have any family close by?
All of my family members are sick and tired hearing my whining. My mother got health problems already because of me.

>Can you get out and join some kind of social activity while you are studying?
Not really.

>I can't imagine how betrayed you must feel about that.
Thanks for trying. Its pretty bad, believe me.

> I'm willing to bet that the people you date can sense that.
I don't think its what drove her away. Anyone trying to be better on the first date, its not a crime. I think it something else, but i don't know what. Maybe because i didn't kiss her or let her pay for her ticket in zoo. Maybe i wasnt funny enough. I don't know what exactly it was.

>You don't have to always be positive and confident.
With women you have to. If i was always positive and confident, i would be still be with my ex and have a friend, thats for sure, im certain of it for 100%.