Hi everyone! Below is the text I have sent through 'Ask a therapist' page. Actually I would be very thankful to just get some opinions on this, so please read and share your thoughts!
Ever since I remember I was trying to do too many things. Besides my job I always have a number of "hobbies" or "passions", that make it really hard to concentrate on one main thing or even to choose what that main thing should be. For example, lately I have become obsessed with making electronic music. So while being at work I am secretly spending nearly all my day reading and watching videos about the equipment and techniques. Note, that I mostly do not actually make music, but rather "prepare", "research" or "study". I consistently miss deadlines at work, but just can't keep my mind on the job.
But the worst part of this is that through my life I had a dozen or more of such hobbies, becoming obsessed, than switching to another, than going in circles. Some but not all of them include drawing, painting, playing different music instruments, programming, visual design, tournament poker (professional approach requires a lot of training), financial trading, internet marketing, and others. As you can probably guess I have never become decent at any of this, just "trying", "learning" and then switching to another. I am writing this because it looks like some kind of disorder to me, I just spend a lot of time with little results, my main job is constantly in danger because I am distracted and I am very frustrated. I don't understand, why do I even want to do these things. I just become obsessed and can't stop, can't control it.
I would really appreciate if someone could explain what is going on with me, why is my mind working this way and what to do to actually live a more simple and fulfilling life. Thank you!
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