howdy! i'm new here, so that's now i'm starting off most of my posts for now ;v;

i'm 16 and homeschooled, and nearly all my friends are online. they're about all the social interaction i get, minus a 10hr/week job.

i think the normal attitude is to want to be able to branch out and interact with people without fear someday in the near future, and i have that attitude too. but the desire to just break off all connections and literally live like a hermit is overwhelmingly enticing. it just seems nice. it seems ideal. it doesn't take my energy and cause me anxiety the way social interaction sounds like it would.

does anyone else feel this way? where they'd rather lead a life that accommodates avpd than 'get better' one day?