I think my need is affirmation that he will not abandon me, no matter how healthy or unhealthy I am at the time. I have always had this issue, it just seems to be more pronounced now that I am getting better and I need him less.

Yes, it is reasonable for him to reduce the sessions and nope, I don’t feel good about it. I have been seeing him every 2-4 weeks for a couple years.

I dropped the letter off at his office, so he has a copy of it. Generally, he puts stuff like that in my chart and then has them for the next session.

No, we have not talked about reducing sessions…each time I go they get a little further apart. He did not just spring it on me, its been happening real slowly over the past few months. I have a feeling we will talk about it next session. I hope he does not think I am obsessed with him. I am not really obsessed, but I am a little dependent.

I am going to miss him—I really like him and he makes me feel like I am not crazy. He is like my anchor. I have a relative new therapist, but we are now to the point I trust her and we have been doing some good work. It is time for me to switch some of my “needs” to her and work on them in therapy. We did talk about this last week and we will probably talk about it this week. It does not feel like it is just going to resolve itself. I feel like I am whining because I know I need to reduce sessions with my pdoc but I just don’t want to…and yet, it is the right thing to do. I feel like I am making such a big deal out of something that is not that big and yet, in some ways it feels huge. That sound like a weird statement, but its how I feel about the issue.