My own happiness is something I honestly don't even know anymore. I don't know what would ever make me happy. I have reached a point where I think it's time I forget about being happy. I am now only interested in at least meaning something to someone still, leaving some kind of legacy or thing that someone in the future will find useful or much-needed.

And yes, it is great when someone thanks you for what you did, but the real challenge is to serve someone who you know will never appreciate it. A person who might even hate your guts. One has to look beyond your own need to feel satisfied about doing something for someone (by them appreciating you in return). This is the nature of the world. Appreciation and satisfaction are hardly existent today. But, just like nearly drowning should never stop you from going back into the sea, so too should a lack of satisfaction not stop you from serving people. You will be hard-pressed to find it nowadays anyway. So, it's better to forget about it. I think as long as you can be satisfied with yourself and appreciate yourself for doing something, then you'll be happy eventually.

We are people who are happy when others are happy with us I have found. It's hard in today's world because people aren't happy with us and what we do anymore. The key is to be faithful to yourself and just believe that some day it will be appreciated. The person who will like what you did is still to be born. That's the way you've got to look at it I think.

Many "visionaries" were depressed people, despite being intelligent and talented. People just didn't get them and what they were about back then. Today they do.