Therapy wasn't working for me so she assured me there was a new plan and this is her new plan, for me to see someone else someone more long term she said she was never meant to be long term :'(
She says it's a good thing and I'm sure it is but I am soooooo upset. I wanted to stay with her... I don't even know why I always felt she was frustrated with me and we couldn't do trauma work because I just wasn't ready. She says I need to take a break from everything, to stop trying to figure everything out and just 'be'. Be in the stupid world. She says I need to swim a few laps for a while

I cried.. So much. For the first time in a long time and my first time ever with her.. I said I didn't want to start over with someone knew. She said it was triggering some abandonment issues and that she will be with me the firsterting eith the new T... But still. I wanted it to work with my t

God, I feel like a big baby.