Thank you all for your responses and I am sorry that I have been away so long to respond. Things are not good for me and I realize that, and I kind of realize why my t made the ultimatum. I went to an assessment for my county and the person said she was going to recommend iop. I am kind of torn because I think I need in-patient. I am going to go forward with what is recommended and try my best. As far as the relationship with my t, he says things are fine, but I still feel uneasy.

Today has been especially hard for me. I went to my mom's which is bad enough as it is, but I also overheard her interaction with her boyfriend. I was upstairs when he came in, and I was able to overhear everything he said to her. He was so emotionally abusive to her. Calling her stupid and berating her for not having things ready for him when he arrived. When she told him he said he would be coming later, he said she should have known he might arrive early. I listened to all of this without saying anything. I feel like a coward. If it was anyone else I would be telling him what an jerk he is. I know my mom treats me the same way, but I have never seen her in the same position and it is hard. No one, even her, deserves to be treated in such a way.