Faaaaaawk I am so frustrated with all this s*%t I just want to drift off to ocean world and never return!!

...and then I have to tell myself I have a son and a husband and dogs that need me but shiiiiiiiit, this being in your body and living in this world stuff is so freakin hard. And grounding, living in the moment, why is this all such a foreign language?? How do normal people get this? I want to be a normal people but I hate being in the world, I hate feeling my feelings, I MISS my addictions. Now all I have is dissociation but i need to get rid of that too!!

And my t abandoned me
I'm so sad ... And frustrated. And want to quit.

This sucks. It all sucks.