'I would just suddenly act on without a will of my own - like my body were taking instructions from someone else' yep exactly, I have this feeling right now, like my mind is turned off, body is detached of mind and something/someone/whatever is pushing me to bang my head to the desk or kill myself... My room is strange, my hands are strange, breathing is strange, so annoying, I feel like bear grylls, have to survive on wildness of own mind without too many tools :s but you're right, we have some tools, just can't remember where I throw them... Accio tools! oh I don't have a wand...