I am SO paranoid lately with the new-ish job and all I want to do is leave quit or find something new because I cant deal with being around so many people especially the SAME ones day after day. I guess its anxiety. I feel trapped and under watch by all the other people. A cubicle and these 3 ladies around me have whisper matches with their back turned about a foot away. They speak through their cubicles at normal levels but when near me it is WHISPER. The ladies thought it was a secret but I already figured out that their 4th had quit. Once I was entering the washroom and they went a gasp that it was me, a hush and I went in to pee. No one cares. It is rude, I find it insulting. These two ladies kind of made it obvious that one had been bad mouthing me to the other and vice versa when I wasnt around. SO Since I cant prove it … I called her fake on a note and showed her. SO apparently she reported this as a threat and had her best friend come on in as a witness to "Things muttered under imjustsolittles breath" And told the boss in writing. They then bring up one time in July that I raised my voice to someone else FOR A MOMENT and began saying I have targets and move from one to the other… as one lady left the position. I have no idea how this all looks to them. I kept saying if she thinks its a threat than doesnt that mean what I said was true by indicating shes scared? Why not reply to me? She wouldnt even after they said to approach her and she just ignored me. Apparently its me whom did not leave 'personal' things at the door. I insist I had nothing against that girl until I went in a bathroom and their behaviour defined them. I dont see the point of trying to please all of these people. Even the boss. Didnt this lady make her bed and if I say lay in it shes all uncomfortable. I'm uncomfortable with all the whispering. The boss told me to deal since he prefers it… insists its a part of every workplace. I insist this is situational and I thought the July moment was resolved and no voices were raised etc nothing the same BUT THEY SEEM TO CONNECT and think I have people in my sights. I dont want to o back. I dont want to go to a new place. I dont want to deal with people anymore. Shortly after the moment with the bathroom, I began going over my passed jobs and why I never got that way. I was not around people. That was the common element but they dont pay. I dont believe I can change. I dont like how people operate and be fake nice to people even on the day they are on their way out. I do not have 8 faces or enough time for keeping track of lies. The quitter lied, the thing from July was over lies and catching both ladies in the bathroom means its all lies. Its all lies. Why are people all lies…… I dont understand adult life. I'm 2 years shy of 30. IT WONT GET BETTER. PEOPLE ARE LIKE THIS EVERYWHERE AND I FIND THIS KIND OF SOCIALIZING EXHAUSTING.