I think it is safe to say I did no packing up of bags or leaving to be homeless. I actually had drank a little too much the night I posted this so that was probably part of why I was feeling how I did...but the days leading up to that I was sort of feeling like everyones always sneaking around and just sort of like an outsider in my own house, so tried expressing that but turned into more of an argument as I wasn't exactly thinking very clearly. But yeah sometimes I really do just feel fed up...I think that is part of why I ended up getting as drunk as I did, was trying to numb myself and it backfired a little just causing me to feel worse in the morning and guilty about not waiting till I was in a more sober/rational mindset to bring up the issue.