Hang in there. It will get better. I'm glad you had such a good visit with your family. My ex made it hard for me to spend time with my family, too. I've been to many great family get togethers since my divorce. And as I get older I realize how much I needed that time with my family. Since then I have lost my mother and father. I cherish the times that we spent together after my divorce. Just be grateful for each moment you spend with them because you aren't alone while you are with them. Hang in there.