(((((((((((bronee))))))))))))))))))

although it wasn't my dad i hear exactly what you are saying and i felt every word you said and felt every emotion. i am holding on tight to you my dear dear friend and i will never let go of you. i'm here. sorry i haven't been around but just pm me anytime.
this will take time to heal and you have to heal properly from the inside out with the help of a good pdoc. we cant change what happened to us but we will not let it destroy the rest of our lives.i wished i'd had the courage at your age to deal with these things instead of leaving it until now when i'm 42. i want you to go on and have a happy and fulfilled life and not let the bastard ruin it, i try to think of it like that, sometimes it helps but its not easy.
you are surrounded by love here at pc, reach out for it and wrap yourself in it.

take care love you with all my heart e.mom xoxoxoxoxoxoxox