I am the same as you grey wolf. For years anyone i have told how I feel might offer things will get better. Unfortunately they have not. Year after year. Of depression. Something will come up? It hasn't for me. I don't actually know why I am even posting this. Right now I know that I am being unhelpful and negative. Its just frustration I suppose that after all these years its just the same or worse. I can't take much more.