Thanks, ECHOES. You're right. I just feel a little ashamed to feel so much for my t. I feel guilty because I don't feel that for my H. Or maybe I do but I'm afraid of love. Also, baby and Mommy love is different. My t is calm and safe. Not anxious like my Mom was, so she's giving me something I never had that makes me love her. I have to stop trying to figure it out because it's from my heart, not my head.