Feeling very disconnected to everything today-like I'm here but I'm not here. Hard to describe-have an undercurrent of potential anxiety & irritability cause I want to stay home today & we were invited to visit friends of my husband which I don't want to go to-I get so sick & tired of doing & going to things that I don't want to do-bleh. I want to go to that mythical place of do anything that you like in your free time. I know if I go I will be siting there with some kind of frozen look on my face with an endless loop of "I don't want to be here" circling through my brain. Crap crappity crap.