Your situation reminds me of the book "Running on Empty". It was largely my situation too. Not so much horrible beatings, SR, SA, etc. but emotional neglect. Emotional neglect is a horrible form of child abuse and causes major disorder in growing and developing. But, like you say, it doesn't sound like much to anyone but a trained professional. I can see the strong need to make your hurt sound justified to people. You know you feel the hurt as much as if you were beaten with a baseball bat
And maybe Thanksgiving holiday has some effect, I don't know. Everyone gathering to have a joyous celebration and ignore your pain while you have to feel it just the same.