I had fantasies of killing my dog because it made me angry and I crossed the line , do I regret it no should I yes .
( I did not kill my dog today this was in the past )

My anger is not as strong as it was this morning ...

I didn't call my T because I am in-between in getting a new one and I have not yet called for my appointment my doctor told me to few weeks ago but I haven't done so .

My husband says he makes the money so he can spend it how ever he wants . I don't know why but him spending money is a huge trigger to me , we fight about this all the time . I am not happy and I cover up my feeling with food .

When I say he is trying to kill me he buys junk food and I eat it , I know I should eat good food but when he buys junk food I binge on them .

I lost a good 30 pounds with my add pills but now that my doc. wont let me have any more and wants me
on psychosis meds ( asap ) it makes me gain more weight .

I just hate everything !