If the choice is between that and harming your children, yes. But that is not the real choice and I think you are aware of that. You are at the point of becoming a danger to others when you have begun acting on your fantasies. Therefore the real option is to go to a hospital and get yourself the help you need.


She is angry. Not the same as true suffering. Nor do I belive her suffering allows her to emotionally or physically harm others. "Oh poor you" responses are inappropriate in this context and can cause people to act on their violent fantasies. I know that beyond any doubt because I have been on the receiving end of it. My mother would get responses like some of you are giving the op and then she thinks she is somehow right or justified or her thoughts are fine and safe. Once she was told her feelings and thoughts were fine and understandable, she kept ramping herself up from there.