I don't know how you can summon emotions in front of someone if it's always been difficult for you (I don't have that problem), but what you said about reacting to her facial expressions resonates with me. I think I get why you react the way you do. That kind of thing stops me cold.

I imagine you're stuck in a small office and have to face each other, but is there a window you can both turn your chairs to face and look out while you talk? It always helps me not to be stared at. Going for a walk is good too, but not all therapists do that or work in an area where there's good walking.

I hope it goes well for you tomorrow and that you can get this off you.