Walking would be nice if it wasn't -10 Celsius outside with snow and slush on the ground. I actually saw her walking outside with another client once and it took me like five minutes to figure out what was going on. But yeah, she is the kind of person that would be cool with that if it wasn't so darn cold out. Canadian winters.

I think I figured out a big reason why I suck at showing her feelings...when I show my feelings, I feel exposed and vulnerable, which makes me feel like a little kid, which makes me want someone to react to me in a maternal way and I have absolutely ZERO desire for any maternal transference with this T. Been there, done that, got the t-shirt. She knows this and keeps telling me if it happens, it's okay, and we will just talk about it and she won't leave...and it's not that I'm scared of her leaving or of anything in particular happening; I'm just SCARED period.