ive had thoughts and paranoia that people were doing specific things just to get at me and make me angry. but in the end its just paranoia. a symptom. ive heard voices that have told me to hurt other people and my cat. but i dont do those things. i talk about them to my T. i feel like u would fare better talking to a mental health professional about all this. i sense that these kinds of posts on this particular subforum elicit strong reactions from people. saying your paranoias and intrusive thoughts and strong emotions out loud to someone safe has always helped me. maybe you do need to be in the hospital. its hard to tell someones intent over the internet. i understand having thoughts and fantasies that when voiced would probably scare other people. but this is not to say that you should hide them. i just think you would get more support if you talked to a professional about this. i think that most people tend to judge people who have psychosis as scary and dangerous. i think a trained professional who specializes in psychosis can help you. i hope that you get the support you need.