I was the happiest kid you would ever meet. Did what I was told I was super smart. I remember anxiety always being there. I remember a couple of times where I would get so angry Id just start throwing stuff everywhere. I've had approximately 3 black outs where I had no control over anything my body still worked my mouth but it was like my brain just shut off temporarily. During the depression stages I can get irritable from feeling tired but I mostly feel empty and emotionless. My doctor asked me how I felt during manic episodes and i said fu**ing amazing. It's like flying. Being high. But it's scary waiting for them to come cause you never know what your going to do during them nor do you think logically. I've never felt like I've been emotionally stable. It's important to find triggers to your different emotions...depression...manic...anger. You won't ever be able to control it but knowing when their going to happen can help you prepare for it and keep it under control and no when to walk away from something. Seems for bipolar people everyday things are that much more difficult and pushing yourself to much can wear you down. It's good to have at least one thing you will get done everyday. Have a schedule. Have something to keep your focus on.

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