.... Could I have pulled "IT" off? Or even conceived it? If I were this quivering mess of unstable emotions could I have done the months of planning "IT" took? Coordinated everything, down to the last detail to ensure "IT" was flawlessly executed? Timed "IT" out to the last minute, and ensured all went to plan? Looked sharp, felt great, and received nothing but compliments and praise from everyone after "IT" was over????

I think not!!! The quack had me convinced I was this hopeless basket case who would come to a bad end.

I think not. F you, you miserable be otch.

I'm back baby, I'm back.

'IT" was a surprise 90 the birthday party for my mom with basically my entire family there - and it went great and everyone got along and had a wonderful time - like a real family . My mom was a bit suspicious the last few days, after the fact she said it occurred to her something like that was up and she said she wasn't very surprised when she walked into the banquet room at the restaurant and saw everyone and all of the decorations and the cake etc.

I feel very vindicated - I won't deny that I have mental health issues but I no longer fear that concept nearly so much. Things like this do make me realize I am still completely real-world functional and knowing I did most of the planning back in the summer when I was pretty depressed tells me I can work with this thing and not let it get the best of me.