hi nice lady

well first let me say damn .......like daaaammmmnnnn ....sorry to hear it happen it is not the first time i heard or seen this

what happened in the past and what u sawl as child growing up plus the area / religion and income ........all this had a impact on forming who u are as for what it does to u it all depends on what u learned taken decided to do with it ..........on a good note i know of a lady that was raped by her father for years and sawl him kill her mother then himself bounced around foster care until aged out ( happily married now for 11 years 2 kids ...last i heard she made LT in the army....32 year old now )

on behave of the decent guys sorry u had this stuff happen..........this is what i told my niece (at 13 she looked 22 ) guy does wrong u have the right to bust a ball ....most common is kick them in the nuts...they bend over u knee them in the nose (grab their head and push down hard as bring knee up) push them over run the other way yelling fire (sad fact ppl hear rape they do not do anything because of lots of reason some do most do not .....but fire is in own self protection to do something see where it is.... get out.....there by getting ppl in the area or witness/help ) ............other methods are squeeze it until pops with nails .....then make sure u deck him good in the nose (hitting in the nose will cause eyes to water or kill them with right force but it gives u 10 to 20 secs more to get out of there along with the pain of the busted ball ............i seen what happens when u twist one or pop one the guy will be in to much pain to do anything but cry .....unless on pcp...but that is unlikely )...........rem yell fire not rape

as for guys .............we are morons some of us are true scumbags others are just nice morons .........i am not sure what your age is or your type ...........try smart guys nerds tech geeks ....the shy guy ........a guy that came from big family with sisters or southern baptist mother ......it is going to sound funny but video game /comic geeks (all those darker urges are normally not in those types of ppl )

last thing i can say is i know 6 more ladies with something the same or worst in the background but they are all happy ppl 4 have kiddies of their own 2 of them are younger then 18 one is 7 other is 12 ..........some nightmares now and then ....flash backs .......but one good thing about human mind is with enough time and enough good all bad memories fade to the background where they soon or later fade away.....(still part of u but not in waking mind unless something triggers it but those go away or can be avoided )

no on bi polar.......... yes on anxiety
bi polar is a chemical imbalance in the mind hitting in the teen years to mid 20s
anxiety can be caused by events in life at any point