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Originally Posted by CalmingOcean
Faaaaaawk I am so frustrated with all this s*%t I just want to drift off to ocean world and never return!!
...and then I have to tell myself I have a son and a husband and dogs that need me but shiiiiiiiit, this being in your body and living in this world stuff is so freakin hard. And grounding, living in the moment, why is this all such a foreign language?? How do normal people get this? I want to be a normal people but I hate being in the world, I hate feeling my feelings, I MISS my addictions. Now all I have is dissociation but i need to get rid of that too!!
And my t abandoned me 
I'm so sad ... And frustrated. And want to quit.
This sucks. It all sucks. |
One of my biggest difficulties is dealing with my feelings. I have an entire system to help me avoid dealing with my feelings and it has worked for years. Only now I am realizing that what is life without feeling it. The good and the bad. In-order for me to feel the good, the love, the joy, the happiness, I have to allow my self to feel. And that opens the door for me to feel the sad, the pain, the anger. I am in my 50's. I have a son and grandchildren, I don't want to live the rest of my life without feeling. No matter what it is. Right now in session I am trying to work on feeling. You will get through this. You will find peace in being able to feel. Be strong and work through this. There is a world of joy out in front of you and the pain and anger will be behind you. Take care.