Thank you Rose. It is always helpful hearing everything from another persons point of view. I grew up in an alcoholic house hold so i know what kind of issues and problems that can lead to. All of my aunts and uncles are drugs addicts and alcoholics so i have seen it in the flesh. All my cousins have bound together and worked hard on not becoming like the generation before us. I love my dad and maybe its just me feeling sorry for him and myself. I just want him to know i love him dispite all the hardship we have had. I know he is in deep and cant crawl out. I just want to be there for him for moral support. Knowing all that i do about alcoholism and seeing what it can do to someones life, i dont feel i give up on him like everyone else. I will be there if he needs (morally) and if not, i will just hope for the best for him. I will try hard to not have expectations.