I could not agree with this more. This sort of subject matter is a trigger for me but it's also very serious and I feel it's important to add my comment. I think that most people on this forum respond in caring and supportive ways to all who express themselves here and I imagine from your words, Nature1968, that you are struggling as well. But there is the added factor that even the title of your thread indicates thoughts of harm to your family, as well as the posts throughout this thread about the same subject as well as writing about past harm to animals. For this reason people will also be concerned and express thoughts about the people and animals around you that could possibly be harmed if the thoughts you describe become action or behavior. I plead for you to seek immediate help and support for what you are dealing with. Being concerned about those around you does not mean we are not also concerned about you but it is something that needs to be considered and talked about.

It's true that probably everyone fantasizes at one time or another about inflicting harm on a family member or someone they care about. That is human and it is, in and of itself, harmless. It just doesn't sound like that is what you are describing and with your acknowledged past of harming animals I think it's essential that you ask for some help. It's for you and for the ones you love. I think it is a positive thing that you have come here to talk about this-that is a very good sign that you are talking about all of this. I would keep going in this positive direction and seek the help of a professional who can be by your side and support you through all that you are going through.