Dear brokenentity. I think I know what's going on with you. I think I can explain the "something missing," the "emptiness in you" and I think I know what to do about it too. It took me a very long time to figure this out, but depression, I believe, has a hidden, secret, relatively simple core cause that is at the root of everything that is happening to you.
**Depressives, I believe, have unconsciously turned away from their own inner decision making process.**
Depressives continue to live, but they do not continue to DECIDE. I think that this has happened to you. I think that's why, even though you feel relatively unstressed right now, you can sense that something is wrong. You can sense an inner helplessness. You can sense that if something goes wrong, you will not be able to deal with it. That part of you that decides what happens in your life is VERY important. In a way, it is your own true inner self. In a way, depression is exactly losing contact with your own true inner self. No wonder you feel lost and helpless and you feel like something is wrong.
You can read about this more and find out exactly what to do in this thread
http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html
Now, this is all my opinion. However, I really think I am right about this and you'll see in the thread that it has already worked for others as well as for me.
Also, there are a bunch of easy non-drug things that are known to be good for depression:
Exercise
Improving your diet
Optimizing your supplements
Meditation
The thing is, these are all GREAT for you anyway. So what should you do? You should do them all!
One more thing. There are a surprisingly large bunch of medical and specific nutritional issues that can cause depression. For that reason, it's always good to get thoroughly checked out by a Medical Doctor. If you have hypothyroidism or vitamin D deficiency, you will probably need help to figure that one out, and these things happen quite a lot. You can find a partial list that I got from Mark Hyman in post #45 of the above thread.
Also, one other thing I'm noticing with you a little bit is I'm sensing that you're very "good at depression" so to speak. I'm noticing that you have coherent well thought out answers to all of the other responders to your post. You might want to think about this and watch out for it. For some people, they get comfortable and familiar with depression even though it is unpleasant. I think that this might also be reflected in your name "brokenentity". You might consider rejoining this forum with a new uplifting name to symbolize a new upward path.
RIGHT HERE. RIGHT NOW.
I'LL SEE YOU IN HEALTH!! - vital
