I have found over the years that "getting better" with DID looks like getting worse. It's stirring up the mud on the bottom of a clear river. There had been a time I was working with one therapist that felt like she was making me switch on purpose and it would take me a long time to 'get it together' before returning to work. I quit. Maybe she wasn't the right T. (well, I know she wasn't - long story), but also, maybe I wasn't ready to go down those paths, you know?
This could be a sign of either for you. Maybe it isn't the right time, and you need to slow down.
Or maybe the mud's going to get stirred up because it just can't stay still any more.
You're sure not alone. I know a lot of us here understand. And lately, my other adult alter has been trying to take over my position as front self.... so i've been fighting with her, too.
Courage!