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Originally Posted by Claritytoo
One of my biggest difficulties is dealing with my feelings. I have an entire system to help me avoid dealing with my feelings and it has worked for years. Only now I am realizing that what is life without feeling it. The good and the bad. In-order for me to feel the good, the love, the joy, the happiness, I have to allow my self to feel. And that opens the door for me to feel the sad, the pain, the anger. I am in my 50's. I have a son and grandchildren, I don't want to live the rest of my life without feeling. No matter what it is. Right now in session I am trying to work on feeling. You will get through this. You will find peace in being able to feel. Be strong and work through this. There is a world of joy out in front of you and the pain and anger will be behind you. Take care.
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Thank you for this response. You are right, any feel good or bad is hard for me. I didn't realize it until my t pointed that out. Amazing how cut off we have made ourselves.. But what's more amazing is the feelings I have learned to fake. Reversing that is an agonizing thing. Learning to feel again, to interact, to have normal adult relationships, experiencing the world, the joys as you say, it's all so foreign. It is weird that we need to learn this. But your right, it must be worth it.