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Old Nov 29, 2014, 04:12 PM
PaulaS PaulaS is offline
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I had a partly similar experience as you when my T terminated me. You really donīt need to feel like a baby, many people who attend therapy have attachment and abandonment issues which you easily get reminded about in this kind of situation.

I really understand itīs very hard loosing a T because of such a reason as you describe but one thing you could perhaps be a bit grateful about is that she does send you to another T. I was terminated but also "put on the street", that is I now have to search for a new T all by myself.

I had a similar comment from my T, that I shouldnīt explore and analyse too much what went on in therapy. But thatīs just who I am and perhaps who you are as well, you canīt "turn off your brain" to fit into therapy.

Even if itīs hard I would think about the situation out of the perspective that the current T in a way doesnīt allow you to progress or not progress in your own pace and therefore itīs better with another T. You still have all those feelings for her, I now mean within the therapeutic relationship, and I still cry and mourn over loosing my T.

But those feelings and an effective therapy is two different things I think, but still they have to go together, that is even if you have positive feelings the T also have to be competent enough to deal with your problems.

The thing I see, which I also saw in my own therapy is a kind of non proffessionality when it comes to that the T creates this bond with you, gives you several sessions and then terminates you. That of course triggers abandonment issues on a much larger scale than if she had realised she couldnīt work with you much sooner, before you got too attached to her.

As you feel you really want to continue with your current T I would bring the issue up once again to ensure myself about that it really depends upon her skills and nothing else. I say this because I was recommended another therapy form when terminated but Iīm almost sure my termination had to do with the fact that my T took things personally and that she wanted clients that so to speak "followed her lead" all the time.



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Therapy wasn't working for me so she assured me there was a new plan and this is her new plan, for me to see someone else someone more long term she said she was never meant to be long term :'(
She says it's a good thing and I'm sure it is but I am soooooo upset. I wanted to stay with her... I don't even know why I always felt she was frustrated with me and we couldn't do trauma work because I just wasn't ready. She says I need to take a break from everything, to stop trying to figure everything out and just 'be'. Be in the stupid world. She says I need to swim a few laps for a while

I cried.. So much. For the first time in a long time and my first time ever with her.. I said I didn't want to start over with someone knew. She said it was triggering some abandonment issues and that she will be with me the firsterting eith the new T... But still. I wanted it to work with my t

God, I feel like a big baby.