Yes powerless is the root of my rage
Powerless to stop the sexual abuse , powerless to stop the physical abuse and so on ..
Deep down inside me is a scared lonely girl who is afraid of humans . Humans hurt me and expect me to take it over and over and when I did get help was abused again it never stops .

I don't think I can ever love because it's just not there , the wall is way to thick and strong to break down .

I will get help , thank you